Stress Eating

I try very hard not to do too much stress eating.  I had a very busy day today, and one of my co-workers was doing his best to get under my skin.  I tried handling it really professionally, but at the end of the day he accused me of being mad at him.  Well, I was, but I lied and said, no we were cool.

I got off the phone and said, "I am lying through my teeth!" because I was, and I meant it.  The other girls in the office laughed.  When I was ready to leave today, I told my supervisor, I am NOT letting him drive me to eat junk food today!  She told me she was proud of the way I handled him and to not let him get to me, he's just angry because the very accomodating person I had been to him was not available.

Well, when I went to pick my husband up from work, he came out the door with a box.  He got laid off.  I was disappointed but not terribly surprised.  I didn't go into panic mode, I did get a little concerned about money until he told me he had about 3 months worth of mortgage payments in the bank.  So I am off the panic stricken list.  I had some appointments to go to, and I didn't grab dinner, so I ended up doing the stupid junk-food thing.  To be honest, I did call home first to see if my husband had made any dinner, which he did not do.  I would have come home and eat if he had.

So I ordered a bunch of greasy chinese food and I'm sitting here thinking, did this really help anything?  I'm not hungry anymore.  I have lunch for tomorrow.  But it didn't solve any other problems, did it?

Funny thing is, I wasn't looking for it to solve any problems other than the I'm hungry problem.

Looks like food is finally becoming food after all.

It's almost that time of year again

Sorry, I have been lax in posting. Next week is my birthday, and I will be 43. I have been struggling quite a bit this year with my weight loss, and that is partially due to my not giving a crap about it. I just kind of gave up. Oh, I talk a good game, but after a couple of weeks of being utterly exhausted with deciding ALL the meals for the house and ALL the groceries, and doing all the cooking, I just get damn tired and want take out chinese food, or anything FRIED. And that's not good for me.

I was diagnosed about 2 months ago with pre-diabetes. Now, most of my diabetic friends say that is like being "a little bit pregnant". Either you are or are not a diabetic. I have decided that it is in my best health interests to treat it as if I am a diabetic, and change my diet and exercise accordingly. That is, I need to GET some exercise, and I need to get more fresh fruit and veggies into my diet. I got put on Metformin to help control my blood sugar, and that seems to be working somewhat. My sugars are mostly normal now as opposed to 116 to 120 fasting and 140 to 170 post prandial. This I count as a victory.

Now, for the exercise portion. I want a Wii Fit. I know, it's a tech gadget and I am all about the tech gadgets, but I also really enjoyed the yoga class I was taking last year, and I like video games, so what's the big deal about getting something that combines them? I know I have a treadmill that right now is collecting dust, but that too will be back in action soon (have to move a few things to make it useful again.) So what if I got DDR and haven't played it much? It hurts my bad knee and ankle to stomp on the mat. My son is playing it, and that means someone in the house is getting some exercise there. I think the gentler aspects of yoga from the Wii Fit will encourage me to exercise more.